Hello?

Hello, Can anyone hear me? Am I talking to myself? 

Yes, I admit I screwed up; But I thought you said you forgave me? Are holding it over my head?

Why won't you talk to me? What did I do?

You aren't explaining anything though I really wish you would. 

What more can I say, I guess nothing at all. 

But I really wish at some point today you would at least say hello. 

(Sorry, I'm a little frustrated.)


Lynn

Balloon!

I feel like....a balloon! Starting to round out in my pregnancy. She kicks hard. Um...something that I have learned today...people are more rude on Sundays. It was a pattern that I may have kind of noticed while I was at work.


Anywho...it seems these days that things tug hard on the heart strings. One person is single handedly uprooting the people that are closest to me. The ones that I love the most. I've had to put up with this one person's bullshit for far too long but now this one thinks they have the right to manipulate the ones I love. NO! I can't and won't tolerate it. These people have helped me learn new things in life and offered a hundred different perspectives on things. This person will not get away this...they will pay...but it will not be that makes them pay. Now as I let some of this anger go...I feel slightly better. Those that I care about are still hurting, still torn, and I am still going to be there.


So I end on this note...grrrrr!
=)

Meghan

Adopting A New Friend?

Meghan and I go to Denny's for coffee almost every other day. We have one server, and we adore her.
She is just the sweetest little thing ever. She always knows that we want two coffees and a bowl of Sweet'n'Low for me. We bring here candy every time we see also. Well we have been wanting to hang out with her for a while but we finally have a date set. Tuesday. We are way excited! We plan on taking her to Japanese Steak and Sushi House in Joplin. I hope that she really enjoys it too. It is my favorite place to eat whenever I get the chance to, and I took Meghan there last week for the first time. Meghan highly enjoyed herself. So I am hopping this all goes well.
Who ever thought of naming a part of hair "Bangs"? That just doesn't make sense. It is like calling a rubber band a hamster. It just makes no sense. Point less. End of story.  Oh My Goodness! The moon look amazing beautiful tonight. I highly enjoyed looking at it. The was the clouds were lined up and the way the light would shine out from behind them; BEAUTIFUL.
Oops, just realized I was getting off topic. Anyways, Back on topic.
I just adore talking to her too! She is the sweetest and funniest. She can always make Meghan and I laugh. Completely worth the drive to Joplin just to get coffee. Speaking of her, I am text messaging our server right now.   We hope to adopt a new friend!!! So far I think a new friendship is forming rather well. I am highly content with this too.
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Well I guess I shall blog more tomorrow but I am done for the night.
Lynn    

                                               ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
                                                This is our server; Caitlin

Today has been an odd day of sorts so far. I woke up without power, regained a friend, and now everyone at work knows about Azlynn. I thought it would be an uh-oh thing, but as it turns out everyone is more excited than I am. Haha. Had it not been for my weak stomach not a soul would know. Just glad that's over. Now for the rest of the day...I can't wait to see my mom and relax tonight. :) It will be nice just to wind down and listen to baby. Hopefully I'll get to see my other half tomorrow and have a good day! If you're reading this...I love ya! Smile and have a good day.

<3
Meghan

2/18/11 My Meghan-Bear

She is my best friend, my sushi mate, coffee mate,  my 90's kid friend, my Meghan-Bear.
You know that we are awesome friends and close like how we are when we drive down the road singing to BackstreetBoys, Nsync, Brittney Spears, Aaron Carter, Justin T., Disney songs and I could make a list but that would take way to long. I love her to death and little Azlynn too. 
When either of us is upset, or anger, or happy, or just plane out needs to rant we do one thing. Coffee anyone? ^_^ It makes things better. 
What gets better then leaving candy for someone on a table? Haha. We do that. 
We love our server too. In fact, Next week we are going to invite her to get lunch with us and ect. 
During the snow storm I was thinking about actually hopping inside a tub with cookies, milk, brownies, and blankets and sliding down the hill and around the corner to her. 
I stuff my makeup and mints and everything else in her purse too. Normally a female human would get pissed and start yelling "GET YOUR OWN DAMN PURSE THIS ONE IS MINE BITCH" but not her. She simply smile at me and says i knew that was coming. Inside her head I know shes screaming "WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOUR DOING WHITE GIRL!" ^_^ I love you Meghan-Bear. 
I love quotes movies with her too. Haha. 
Well I guess this is it for now. 
Lynn

02/17/11 Sleepless Nights

         Got home last night and couldn't sleep at all...it wasn't the coffee or the excess amount of sugar I'd consumed but the fact that I couldn't stop my mind from thinking. I started thinking about my ex and this little girl that will be here all too quickly. My other half now...and all the drama that's resided over the last month or so.


         I've been so thankful for Lynn in my life. Without her...this last month would have been bitter and extremely cold. She provides this fun-loving atmosphere that's carefree but we can both talk about our problems. For example...the first time I'd talked to the ex that had given me this little blessing...I was a mess. An emotional train wreck...I was having feelings for him again and it tore me apart to know he wasn't ever going to be here for me or for little Azlynn. I cried after the phone hung up, called my mom and asked her what to do. Called Lynn and her response.."coffee!?" And I know that's her way of saying..we are going to fix this, don't worry.


Like I said...last night I didn't sleep much..maybe four hours...but I can't go back to sleep..so I write to you...and hope that maybe you slept well last night. Hope that you have a smile on your face as I end with this......"Start every day with a smile and get it over with. "-- W.C. Fields

02/14/11 V-day and day after birthday

As I sit here looking back over yesterday's events, I figured out two things: One...I have a couple of really amazing friends. Two...I am so lucky to have a family like mine.One...my friends. I got the sweetest gift yesterday from my fellow blogger and best friend. She gave me a teddy bear. While it may seem insignificant to you, to me it was the best. The reason that this gift is so meaninful to me is the thought. She remembered that a month and a half ago I said that I'd wanted a bear one year for my birthday and never got one. It was so sweet of her to remember! She also gave me some vibrating mascara(haha), some fragrant body lotions/soaps, and a book of Saturday Night Live. All of this is why she is such an amazing person. 
Two...my family. My mom bought me a cake, the cutest cake ever. Pink and brown with pretty flowers. Sweet! She also took me and bought me some Puma tennis shoes for work and such. Some clothes were also included and I got to spend time with her. My papa and I watched the Wizard of Oz together and also a nice little documentary on solitary confinement. My grandmother and the rest of my family wished me a happy birthday. It was one of the best by far. Coffee with my best friend, cake from my mom, the Wizard of Oz, and fun filled text messages. As for today...it's Valentine's day. Haha. Joy. Commercialized love and hearts galore. Of course I probably won't be spending it with my significant other, but that's alright. I understand he works hard. Well...off to get ready for work!!
Meghan!

2-14-11 The Dress

As I sit here across the table from my mother (who is on her laptop as well) and we're both chowing down on some Taco Bell, I can't help to realize I have no godly idea on what to blog about. So what would anyone do? Reflect on their day.
 It started with a dress. Not just any dress of course. But The Dress.
 Well first  I should catch you up to speed a little. My mom and I were going out shopping for clothes, there is a cute store here in town called Maurice's  and that's where I found the dress. After helping my mother search for a couple of shirts and giving my opinion on how they looked it on her, soon enough it was my turn to try and find something cute. After searching through the entire store we just couldn't find anything. We were about to give up when I spotted the dress. Mom said it looked cute but I fell for the dress hard.
 The dress is a sun dress:  long, simple white and grey stripes and a  beautiful lace bodice.
 I went to go try it on in the fitting rooms. Sure enough walked out of the store when the dress in the bag and a smile on my face. Normally I wouldn't wear a dress, except to a dance of course. But I had to have this dress.We're driving down the road going to get dinner when I decide that I wish to wear the dress that very minute.  So I end up changing in car while mom is still driving. : ) It was fun. Needless to  say I wore the dress to dinner, Wal-mart, and Taco Bell, and home. In fact I'm still wearing the dress.
 This is the start of a new friendship:  One Human and One Dress