02/17/11 Sleepless Nights

         Got home last night and couldn't sleep at all...it wasn't the coffee or the excess amount of sugar I'd consumed but the fact that I couldn't stop my mind from thinking. I started thinking about my ex and this little girl that will be here all too quickly. My other half now...and all the drama that's resided over the last month or so.


         I've been so thankful for Lynn in my life. Without her...this last month would have been bitter and extremely cold. She provides this fun-loving atmosphere that's carefree but we can both talk about our problems. For example...the first time I'd talked to the ex that had given me this little blessing...I was a mess. An emotional train wreck...I was having feelings for him again and it tore me apart to know he wasn't ever going to be here for me or for little Azlynn. I cried after the phone hung up, called my mom and asked her what to do. Called Lynn and her response.."coffee!?" And I know that's her way of saying..we are going to fix this, don't worry.


Like I said...last night I didn't sleep much..maybe four hours...but I can't go back to sleep..so I write to you...and hope that maybe you slept well last night. Hope that you have a smile on your face as I end with this......"Start every day with a smile and get it over with. "-- W.C. Fields